Lessons learned

This post is more just for me to get my thoughts straightened out, but if you have thoughts or advice, I would love to hear it.
I've been thinking a whole lot lately about what I'm supposed to be learning from things that have been going on. First, I'm pretty sure that somewhere down the road, I will need A LOT of patience. It seems like everything in my life right now is teaching me patience of some sort or another. From waiting for my car to get here, to waiting for my hubby to jump on the baby train, to dealing with our 4 year olds without ripping my hair out, it all comes back to one thing...my lack of PATIENCE. Victor tried to teach me patience while I waited for him to propose...but looking back, I realized that he was right to wait...so is he right to wait before we jump on the baby train?! He always seems to know more than I do...I would like to think it's the Lord giving him inspiration for our family, but sometimes I think he's just stubborn, and just wants to wait, because people keep pushing him (and by people I mean ME)
I didn't think it would be too hard to wait a couple of years for a baby, but now that the time is here, It's breaking my heart to wait. Everytime I take a birth control pill, I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. It doesn't help that everyone around me is getting pregnant, or having babies, or saying stuff about their babies, things like "my baby rolled over for the first time." or "my baby slept through the night." Don't get me wrong, I love our life together, I couldn't ask for a better husband, or life. He has provided me with such an amazing life, I'm really so lucky....I just feel like we're missing something. but it comes back to the patience. When the Lord wants it to happen, it will happen...I just have to keep telling myself that. When my life is supposed to get crazy busy, it will. But I just wish it was happening now. I'm ready for that next chapter in our lives. It may be my husband that is keeping it from happening physically, but I know that the Lord has his hand in everything. That is the one thing that is keeping me from going totally crazy...if the Lord wanted it to happen...it would...even if I am taking the pill.
GAH....so confused.
On to my 4 year olds....I love my primary class, the kids are so cute, and they all have their own personalities...that's for sure. but once again, I keep thinking, "what am I supposed to be learning from the calling?" I sure hope the Lord doesn't have 9 kids up there for me...but even if he did...I'm pretty sure they all wouldn't be 4...! haha. Like I said, I love the kiddos, they are just hard for me to deal with sometimes.
Anyways, I'm sorry to vent to you, but like I said, if you have any words of wisdom, or advice...it would come in handy! I'm not sure what the Lord has in store for my life, but I would like to think that he's preparing me for whatever it is, and all of this will come into play one day.
Thanks! :)

My Birthday

Why hello there!
This past week was an eventful one for sure! Wednesday we went up to a new BBQ in town (and by town I mean like 30-40 miles away) for my birthday dinner! It was super yummy! Then We headed over to my in-laws for cake and ice cream! My wonderful Mother-In-Law searched high and low for the new Carrie Underwood CD for me! I was so excited! That was the one thing I really wanted, so I was super excited! My Mom and Dad also sent me a card with a check in it to "pamper" myself which means I'm finally getting my hair colored! I'm so excited! Friday can't come fast enough! Thursday, which was my actual birthday started out with a big hug and kiss from my hubby! It doesn't get much better than that! Starting the day off with the one person you love more than life! GREAT! I came to work and got a cute little teddy bear, and some flowers from the people I work with! Victor then called and said if I wanted my present, I had to go visit him on my lunch break.....so I did! He bought me a new pair of Oakley sunglasses! They are awesome! I've been needing some new ones for a while now, since the ones I had were like 5 years old, and they pulled my hair out every time I wore them! They are dang cute! I'm so spoiled!


My pretty new car!

Around 3:00 on Thursday, I got a call from Classic Motors, the car dealership we went through to get my new car, saying it was going to be here by 6:00 for sure! We were so excited, and just in time to wind up a great day! BUT 6:00 comes, and I still haven't heard. They then called at like 6:15 saying it was here, but the guy that needed to look over it and make sure everything was working right went home at 6:00. I was so bummed...but I still had a great weekend to look forward to! We were going camping up at Fishlake for Victor's Search and Rescue conference! It was sure to be a good time! Free food, lots of people with guns, and out in the woods. FUN! On the way up we saw a Moose! We were so excited! There aren't a lot of them around here, so we had to stop and take pictures, but the darn thing kept turning his butt to us, so I didn't get a good one! We finally got to our campsite just as dark hit, and my awesome husband, told me to stay in the truck while he got everything set up! We couldn't find our bug spray just yet, and he knows I can't not scratch bites....so I stayed in the truck! It was so nice just being up there, with no cell phones, no facebook, just us, and my in-laws. It was great fun! We went to the conference, and learned a lot. Lifeflight came in, and took a couple people around the lake, and that was awesome to watch! We ate lots of free food, and froze our butts of! It was wonderful!


our new touch screen music
system!

On Saturday we decided we were going to come home early so we could get the car and figure out how to use everything! We got the navigation system, and I had NO idea how to use it! So we spent a couple hours in there figuring out how to use everything! I'm in LOVE with this car! We had it custom built just for us, in fact, there is a paper in the glove box that says "This car was specifically built for Victor Murdock." SOOO cool! It was on my bucket list, to buy a BRAND new car! I was so excited! The car had 10 miles on it when we got it. I think we're up to like 86 now because we had to take it out, then we had to take Victor's parents out! it's so much fun!
On Sunday, we seriously slept more than we've slept in a LONG time! Saturday night we were in bed by 9:30, and we both slept through our alarm, and didn't get up till 9:30...then after we went and taught our primary class we went home and slept for another 4 or 5 hours! Then we were in bed again by 9:30 last night! haha, oh well, we needed it!


Anyways, I hope you all have a great week! :)