Channeling Frustration

Well, I know it's been a while since I've posted, and there may be a reason for that. Lately I have been ornerier than heck. I've been angry at the world. All I've wanted to do was curl up in a ball, and cry the days away. The worst part about it, I'm not really sure why. I mean, I have a couple reasons, a couple of them very big reasons, but it's not something that no one else has been through, and I think to myself, if they can do it, so can you....but in reality, that's not how I see things.
Victor and I had a conversation the other day, a conversation we've had MANY times, but for some reason, this time, it really sank in. Not sure why, but I'm sure glad it did.
I can't go into a lot of detail, but lets just say, something that comes very easy to a lot of other people, isn't for me, and I'm having a hard time dealing with it. I don't understand why it's so easy for some people, and why I'm having the hardest time with it. And this issue literately makes me mad at the world. I'm mad at EVERYONE...everyone except my loving husband, and sometimes my dog.
And then on top of this issue I'm having, there is a lot of drama at work, and I don't deal with drama well. I've always been one of those people that says "If you're mad at me, come to ME about it, don't go to everyone else about it, and then deny it when I ask you about it." but that's not working right now, and I don't know how to deal with it.
So, the other day, while driving up into the mountains, I asked Victor what I should do, and why I'm so angry. Like I said, there are LOTS of other people that have trials, but why does it seem to hit me harder than most? (Yes, loaded question for my husband, I know) He replied with one simple word. A word I've known my entire life. A word that can be said it a good way, or in a bad way. The way Victor said it, it was a bad way. ATTITUDE.  I kinda looked at him funny, (lets be honest, I was a little hurt, and upset that he would tell me that I have a bad attitude, but, I did.) That's one of the many reasons I fell in love with him, because he was so blunt about things, and while he knew it would make me upset, he still said it, because he knew I needed to hear it. My attitude lately has totally and completely SUCKED! There's no denying it. I don't want to go to work, I don't want to go to church, I just want to lay in bed, and think about how the world is picking on me. That's healthy, right? HA!
Since that day, the day my husband told me my attitude sucks, I have been doing a lot of thinking, I've shed a lot of tears, and I'm finally deciding to do something about it. Something I have control over. I don't have control over what people tell me, what they don't tell me, things that happen, or don't happen, but I do have control over my physical health, and to be honest, right now, it sucks just as bad as my attitude. So, today on my lunch break, I went and signed up with a 6 month membership to the local gym. I'm hoping that If i go into working out with a new outlook, besides losing weight and just something I can have control over, and something that I can take my frustration out on, I will be a happier me. Victor is convinced it will work, me? I'm terrified. (Yes, there is my bad attitude again creeping it's way to the surface.) I've never been one to like working out, ever. I don't like getting hot and sweaty, I don't like breathing hard, I don't like saying I can't run a mile, but I don't like wanting to cry all day either, and I'm hoping that this will be a solution. While it won't fix things that are broken, or fully heal wounds, it will be a great band-aid for now, until the wound has time to heal.
So, here's to a better attitude, and a happier Megan (Which, if you've been around me lately, you know is a must!)

Update

Oh, Hey there!
 I figured since it's been almost 6 months since I posted, I probably should!
There hasn't really been too much that has changed around our house! We've just been super busy getting the backyard ready to get grass planted, finally! (It's been almost 2 years) We are making a patio in the backyard, and we will have a fire pit as well! I'm so excited for it to get done. I'm sick of the weeds, and the mud when it rains! I got our garden planted, and it's growing so wonderfully! I wasn't expecting to get anything out of it, since this is the first year, but I'm wonderfully surprised. I also planted some strawberries, and blackberries, that I have yet to get anything from. Stupid birds!



My Peas

A couple weeks ago my sister in laws came down and surprised me for my birthday! I seriously married into the best family of all time! We went to El Mexicano. If you don't know, maybe you should come visit, and I will introduce you to the best chips and salsa you will ever taste!

My new camera

For my birthday this year Victor let me pick out a new digital camera! It's so nice! I'm so excited to go somewhere and really test it out! It's got this awesome setting on it that detects your dogs face, and automatically snaps the picture, as soon as they look at it! It's so cool! I'm one lucky girl! My husband is so good to me!

This year for our anniversary (July 31) we are going to Mesa Verda, and Durango! I'm so excited! I love seeing old ruins, so I think the trip will be one of the best! I love that we live so close such cool things, like Capitol Reef, Bryce Canyon, Zion's, Fish Lake, they are all within 2-3 hours! We're luck!

My poor wedding ring

My parents moved down here a couple months ago! It's been nice having them so close for the first time since I was 18! It was nice to spend Mother's and Father's Day with them. Sometimes it still feels like they are visiting! Maybe one day I'll get used to having them so close.

This summer I have been playing on a Softball team! My office sponsors a team! It's a lot of fun! We play 2 games every Thursday night! We pretty much suck, but at least we have fun playing! A couple weeks ago, I was catching, and a girl threw the ball from the outfield, and I caught it, and got the guy out....but my wedding ring paid the price. haha. I was just glad my hubby bought the lifetime warranty on it, so they fixed it no problem!

Victor has been busy with bike rides, and search and rescue...unfortunately, it's on Thursdays too. My husband is so active all the time! Sometimes, I'm surprised he can still walk at the end of the day!

I think that's most of our lives these days! Nothing too exciting!

Slacker....I know!

It has been a little minute since I posted last, but I'll be honest, nothing has really happened! haha.
Christmas was great fun! We spend Christmas Eve in Payson at Victor's sister's house with the rest of his family. We did our gift exchange, and had yummy food, and then braved the cold, and bad roads, and we headed up to Highland! We spend Christmas morning with Victor's brother and sister in law! We love spending Christmas with kids, and since we don't have any, his family gets us! Christmas afternoon, we went down to my Grandmas! It was so good to see the whole family! Even some people that I haven't seen in a couple years! It was great! Victor spoiled me with gifts, as usual. He bought be a skull Candy ipod dock, some clothes, some CDs, a hot air popcorn popper, which I love! He opened his cross stitch (that I STILL haven't finished) and was really excited! Just the reaction I was going for!

For New Years, we were party poopers. We were in bed by 8:00, and asleep by 10:00! In our defence, we were sick! It was fun though, we played a couple games, and just relaxed. New Years day we pretty much stayed in the house all day, played some more games, and watched movies together! I love the holidays for so many reasons, but one big one, is I get to have my husband home with me!

With the new year, came a new primary class for us! We will miss our old class, but we were excited to get a new class too. The new class is like a whole new calling. The kids actually sit, and listen, and aren't talking the whole time. It's funny how only having 5-6 kids is a lot easier than 10-12! haha. We still see our old kids, and we still love them just as much!

Victor also came home one day, and told me that he's going out of town next month, for a week. And, of course, it's the week of Valentines day! But that's alright. We're not that big into Valentines day. We usually just do dinner, and a small gift. This year his gift to me is a trip back to Montana to see my parents, brother, and niece and nephew. My gift to him...well, I haven't figured that out just yet. I'm trying to come up with something I can put in his bag before he leaves! I need to get thinking though, because it's only like 2 weeks away! EEK!

This last week, the sick fairy hit me AGAIN! 2nd time this year, and it's not even February. Yesterday was the first time in a week that I haven't felt like I might die! I was surprised when I made it through the weekend with both of my lungs still in my body! I was convinced I was going to cough one of them out! Good thing I didn't, because something weird is happening to me, and I actually look forward to the gym every night! And it's starting to pay off! I'm down 5 pounds! Not bad for really only working out for a week. haha. Hoping to lose 5 more before I head to Montana! Wish me luck!

I hope the new year finds you and your families well, and happy! Here's to hoping 2013 will bring everything you want/need!

Winter 2012

Hello friends and family who actually read our blog!

I just have to say that I love this time of year! I love the Spirit it brings, and I love how happy everyone is!

I guess I'll start with the biggest news, Victor and I got a new niece on the 14th! Gwendalyn Elizabeth (Middle name after me) Granneman was born on December 14! She's a cutie for sure! Ben is such a good big brother to her! I hope that they stay close, like Jake and I were! I can already tell that Gwen has Jacob wrapped around her little finger! It's a good thing he's such a good dad!

Victor and I got our Christmas tree, we had it all decorated, and then it fell over! haha. We spend an hour last night trying to get it to stand up straight, and we finally ended up tying it down. It's stories like these that we will one day tell our kids!

For Christmas this year we will be going up north to Payson on Christmas Eve, Highland Christmas morning, and then Orem Christmas night! I'm so excited to see everyone! I have missed my family so much since we got married and moved down here! I also got some very exciting news the other day, that one of my friends who has been MIA for the last 2 years or so, is back! I'm so excited to see her! We were so close, and it was really hard when she left! I'm so glad she's back, and doing well!

New years eve, maybe we'll have friends down for a party (Mtn. Dew, and chocolate) and movies/games! It should be fun!

I hope you're all doing well!



Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!

Just for Holly

Well Holls,
 Here is a post for ya!

What have we been up to? Here's a quick re-cap

• We got our Christmas tree on Sunday, and got it decorated! I love Christmas time, and I love decorating our house for the season!
• We repainted our house. We went from a blue color, to a tan color! The blue was just too hard to match things to. We LOVE the new color!
• Victor got his cow elk! I LOVE elk meat! It's so yummy! Tonight we're having an elk roast!
• Victor has been busy with Search and Rescue! I love that he's so willing to help other people, but sometimes I worry about him, and what he sees!
• My Mom and dad came down for about a week for Thanksgiving! It was so nice having them here! I can't wait for them to move here! Aaron, Marci, & Rex came down for the day! It was so much fun having family down here.
• I'm going up north this weekend to spend sometime with Victor's family! We are going to Temple Square to see the lights, and to do some shopping! It's going to be so nice! A much needed Girls night or two!
• I'm getting close to being done with Victor's Christmas present! I'm just over 2/3 of the way done, but I probably won't finish it for Christmas. It might turn into a Valentines day present! Oh well, As long as I finish it, I'll be happy!

I think that's pretty much it!

Dramaless life

Well,
 It's been a week since I've stayed off the drama that is FACEBOOK. It has been SOOOOO nice! It's not consuming all of my time. I feel like I've been a better wife for my much deserving husband, I either have dinner done by the time he gets home, or at least started. The other day I shampooed our carpets, and did dinner, all because I haven't been wasting all of my time on facebook. In the mornings, instead of checking it, I read the news, or my scriptures while I eat breakfast, and it's amazing how much better my days go. I do miss catching up with everyone, but this is a much needed break from it.
This coming weekend is going to be a busy one! Marci and little Rex are coming down to help me go through the rest of our in-laws house so it will be ready for the renters to move in, and then I work on Saturday. Then my mom and dad might come down and visit, and we may have one of Victor's buddys down for a visit as well. It's a good thing we got a house with a spare room so all of these people actually have somewhere to stay! haha. I'm also hoping to be able to work on Victor's Christmas present a little bit this weekend. I can't believe Christmas is only 8 weeks away. I gotta get my butt in gear if I want to finish it by Christmas. EEK!
Anyways, that's it for now! :)

Sanity

I have decided that I will be blogging more, and facebooking less. I have actually deactivated my facebook account due to my sanity. I need a little break from the drama that is facebook. I have also decided that the most important people in our lives, are the ones that like to read our blog. So thanks to you!
These last few months have been CRAZY! Here's a quick recap

• For the 4th of July we went up north to visit family! It was so much fun seeing everyone again.
• August was my dad's birthday, but luck him, he had to have his galbaldder removed on his 60th birthday. Poor guy.
• September was a busy month. We went on our anual trip to Vegas, and this time it was non-eventful. No getting sick (at least not bug sick) no toothaches, and no getting lost! It was delightful. We went to the wax mesuem this time, and it was a lot of fun. Victor even got into take pictures with the people. It was awesome!
• Also in September was hunting season. My mom and dad came down for a visit, and my dad went out hunting with Victor and I! I was so close to getting my first deer, but I missed it by 6 inches because I stupid ATV came up the road and scared it! :(
• We went camping quite a few times in September! It was awesome! I forgot how much I loved camping! We haven't really gone for a while.
• We also went to Zion's with my in-laws! It was a fun last trip before they left on their mission for Jamacia, but more about that later!
• The last 2-3 weeks of September were spent helping my in-laws pack and clean their house so they can rent it out while they are gone. It was a lot of work, but I think we did a good job!
• The first weekend in October, we went up north to have one last dinner, or what was supposed to be a last dinner, with Rex and Cathie before they headed off to Jamacia! It was so nice to have the family together. We got famiy pictures (Well most of the family, we were missing one sibling) and had lots of fun. That night, when we said good-bye I cried like a baby! Everytime I thought about them not being there, I would cry! But we are so excited for them. The next weekend, I ended up going back up north to take them a suit they needed for the MTC, so then I had to say good-bye all over again. but this time it was a bit easier, probably because I thought I would see them once more, which I didn't. But, I was okay with it, because I didn't want to have to say good-bye for a third time!
• We also are watching Rex and Cathie's dog, Buddy, while they are gone. The poor thing misses his home. He got out of the yard last week, and, it took him an hour, but he found his way home. He was sitting on the back deck when we finally found him. I think Dash drives him a little crazy!
• Last week, Victor went on a cow elk hunt, and filled his tag! I was so excited for him! Yay for having meat in the freezer! Him and his buddy, who also had a tag, each got one that day, and they were only like 100 yards from each other! it was an exciting day for sure!
• These past few days I have had crafts on the brain, so I keep fixing littling things around the house. I have finished decorating our table for fall, and we put a tile backsplash behind our stove to give it a finished look, and I have also made a new towel rack for our bathroom. This weekend, I'm hoping to shampoo our carpets, and go finish cleaning the in-laws house before the renters move in next week.

Our Table for the fall

our tile backsplash

So that's a little bit about what has been going on with us. I will be blogging a lot more in the near future, so check back! :)