News

Hello to the 2 people that actually read our blog! ;)

We finally have some news on what's going on with baby! We know that they are pulling the stitch on June 6th, which means we will be delivering here in Richfield because I will be 37 weeks at that point! After they pull that stitch, our little man is welcome to come whenever he wants! Victor thinks I'll make it a couple more weeks before he makes his grand entrance, I think he'll probably come within a week of them pulling the stitch! I guess we shall see! I can't believe we could have a baby in 3 weeks! It's a crazy thought! I guess we need to start to get his room put together!
  I go in again tomorrow to check everything, and to make sure he's still stuck in there, but I'm sure everything will be just fine!

Here is a picture of our little guy when he finally decided to show us his face at our 30 week (4 weeks ago) ultrasound. If you ask me, I think he's the cutest little man there ever was!

For Mommy's eyes only

Hello there fellow mommys!
 I have a quick question for you, and if you want to answer, great! If not, don't worry about it!

After our little man joins our family, I will be taking 6 weeks maternity leave, and then coming back to work. I'm looking for a breastpump that is a good one. One that, if it is a little more money, is worth it. Also, any tips of pumping would be greatly appreciated. I'm worried that I'm not going to be able to get the milk I need for him. Any thoughts and ideas?!

Thanks in advance!

Dear Baby Boy M.

Son,
     As we sit here getting closer and closer to the day you will join us, my mind is filled with so many things I want to say to you, things I am concerned about, and things I just think about.
     First and foremost, I want you to know that your daddy and I love you very much. I'm amazed at how much we love you already. You still have 11 weeks before you join us here in earth, but in our hearts, you've been in our family for 29 weeks. There isn't a day that goes by that we don't talk about you. What we're going to name you, who we think you'll be come, if we're gonna be the best parents for you, and so on and so forth. You are the first thing on my mind in the mornings, and the last thing on my mind at night. When I wake up in the middle of the night to pee because you're kicking my bladder (thanks for that) you are the only thing I think about until I fall back to sleep.
    We're still not exactly sure what we're going to name you, but we have a couple ideas. There is one name that we keep coming back to, and one day, I'll let you know if what we end up naming you, is the name we were thinking about!
    Your daddy and I wonder all the time who you will become. We will raise you the best we can, with the Gospel in your life, but we know that it is ultimately your decision. Please know, that no matter who you become in your life, that your daddy and I will love you....no matter what.
     You will find out that your mommy is a worrier....your daddy, not so much. I find myself worrying a lot about if I'll be the mother you deserve, if I have what it takes to do the 2 AM feedings, if I will be patient enough, or if I will love you enough. I worry that maybe I will screw up. But with the help of your dad, and the priesthood he holds, I've found comfort in the blessings he's given me.
     Speaking of your dad, he is the most incredible man I have ever met. You are so lucky to have him as your daddy. Please look up to him, ask him questions, and let him help you. Please know that while he's not super emotional, and doesn't voice his feelings very loud, or often, know that he loves you. Please lean on him when you're going through hard times. We might be old, but we've been through a thing or two. He is so excited to take you hunting, and camping with him. Use this time to bond with him.
     I can't wait to meet you little guy, but I guess for now I will settle with feeling your kicks, your headbutts, and hearing your heartbeat at all of our appointments. It's amazing how hearing a little "swoosh" can brighten my day so much, and fill my heart with so much emotion.
  
   I love you so so much,
Your Mommy
     
    

Update

Hello there!
  People keep asking me how things have been since the surgery, and I'm happy to report, things have been wonderful. Baby is healthy, and staying put! I go back in on Friday just to check things again, but I'm confident that things will look great! Baby doesn't like it when I sit down. He likes to kick me in my ribs! What a stinker!
   We bought our car seat on Friday! I feel SOOOO much better knowing that we have it. It's still in the box down in the basement, but just knowing it's there takes a lot of stress away.
   I am a little frustrated with something though. My doctor in Cedar will only deliver me in Cedar, which is 1.5 hours away. So, if I make it to my due date, I would have go camp out for the week before, and just wait to go into labor. That doesn't sound like too much fun. However, neither does driving 1.5 hours while I'm in labor. So we decided we would find a doctor here in Richfield to take over my pregnancy, or deliver me here. I will continue to see my doctor in Cedar until week 36 when he takes the stitch out of my cervix, and then we're free to see who we want. I would love to stay with him, I just don't see it happening. I've had a lot of people tell me that within 24-48 hours after the stitch being removed, they have gone into labor. One person told me that the baby was here in less than a half hour. When I went to the doctor here in Richfield last Friday, they told me that they won't deliver me before I'm 37 weeks. If I go into labor before the 37 week mark, they will send me to Provo, either by ambulance, or helicopter, depending on how long they think I have before baby comes. So, I'm not really sure I see the point in switching doctors, if neither doctor I want to deliver me, is going to be the one to do it. Of course, there is the possibility that I will carry to term, and I'll be able to deliver here in Richfield, and everything will be perfect. So, I'm just having a hard time knowing what to do about the whole situation. There is no way to KNOW what's going to happen, and I'm not the kind of person that deals well with that.

Anyways, there is a little bit of an update for you. I will know more after Friday!

Surgery Update

Thank you to everyone that has called, and said prayers on our behalf! the surgery yesterday was successfull. the only complication we had was getting the spinal block in, which caused some extra pain after, and a numb bottom half for 5 or 6 hours after the surgery. they were able to get my cervix sewn shut with no problem. now we are hoping that i wont have contractions, and that this little guy will stay put for a while. as of now i'm suppsed to "take it easy" for the rest of the week, and then see from there. things really couldnt have gone much better.
on a different note, my poor husband is sick. poor guy. we are just a wonderful pair. hes been so sweet through all of this. im one lucky girl.
thanks again for all of your love and support.

Update

Hello friends and family!

once again we need prayers and good thoughts! This is gonna be a quick post, but we wanted to let you know what's going on. I go in on Tuesday for the surgery to sew my cervix shut, so that baby doesn't fall out. If we don't do this surgery, i would be delivering him in the next few weeks. We're scared, but glad that something can be done to help with this situation. Once i hit 36 weeks they will take the stitch out, and I'll be able to deliver normally.
Thanks in advance for all of your prayers!

Rough Day....

2 posts in one week?! This must be a new record! This post is more of me venting/worrying/needing to get some feelings out. So read at your own risk!

WARNING: possibility of negativity...

Today Victor and I went into the doctors office to hear our little man's heartbeat. Also for them to check my cervix. If you read the previous post of our journey to become pregnant, you know that it's thinner and smaller than most woman's. I've been going in every 2 weeks for them to check it. At first, it was doing amazingly well. These last couple appointments, it started to get smaller and smaller. It started out at 4.2 CM, and at today's appointment it was measuring at 2 CM. 2 CM is the smallest they will let it go before they sew it shut. So I have to go back in next Friday (March 7) for them to check it again. If it's gotten any smaller at all, they will be sewing it shut so Baby M doesn't fall out. As of now, I'm not on official bed rest, but I can't lift anything. He specifically said no lifting groceries, probably just to let me know how light things need to be for me to be safe lifting them. If my cervix is any smaller after next week, I will most likely be put on bed rest for the REST of the pregnancy. That is 4 long months of nothing but laying in bed, and peeing.
I'm freaking out a little bit here people. I'm terrified to go to the bathroom (weird I know) but the same muscles you use to go to the bathroom are the same ones used to push a baby out. I know that sewing my cervix shut could be the best thing, but right now, it's a scary thought.
So as of now, I can't lift anything, I can't really do any activities (working out and such) and I have to "take it easy"
I've been so lucky with this pregnancy so far, I wasn't really sick in the beginning, and I haven't really had any other complications, I guess I should be thankful, but right now, I'm scared.
If we do end up having to sew my cervix shut, I will probably have to stick with my doctor (which isn't a bad thing) down in Cedar. The only down side to that is he want's to deliver me down there. Which could mean 1 of 2 things. 1) I (and by I, I mean Victor) will have to drive 1.5 hours while I'm in labor. 2) I have to camp out down in Cedar the week before my due date, until I go into labor. Neither one of those options sound like much fun to me. It also doesn't sound fun to sit in the car for 1.5 hours on the way home after I've had a baby, and I'm sore.

Okay, I think I'm done complaining. I needed to get it out somewhere, and I find writing to be soothing.

If you're the praying kind, maybe say a few prayers for us!