It may be a while....

Well,
     So much for baby just falling out! I went to the doctor today, and since I've only had like 1 or 2 contractions since my last appointment, he decided to not even check me, since there's a pretty good chance that nothing has changed. He started talking about when they will induce, at 41 weeks. So we could be looking at a 4th of July baby! He did say that baby has dropped a little bit, so I'm slowly getting there, but he's not thinking that too much is going to change this week either. Of course, he could be wrong! haha. I guess we'll see what happens! The doctor guessed that baby is around 7 pounds right now, but the longer he's in there, the bigger he becomes!
     I'm actually okay with baby waiting till the due date, because we just got a 7 week old puppy, and I want to get him settled before we bring baby home. Last night, he only whined when he heard me get up to pee, so we're hoping that he's getting used to his crate, and his new home. He's super cute, and he LOVES Dash! Dash is so good with him too, unless he's coming off a sedation, and the puppy won't leave him alone. That ends with the puppy whimpering, and hiding under our bed!

     Anyways, I just thought I would write a quick update for those of you who are actually following along!

What did you say?!

     Over the past year or so there have been a few things said to me that I have really had to stop and think "Did you really just say that to me?" So I thought I would write a list, just so I can find the humor....

     Before I ever got pregnant

• "When are you guys going to have a baby?" - Don't say this to a woman, you don't know what they are going through. They could be trying, and not having any luck.
• "You guys have been married for (insert time frame here) and you still haven't had a baby?!" - See above.

Once we announced I was pregnant 

• "You're FINALLY pregnant?" -Seriously people
• "You're starting to show already." -Nope, I'm just fat! Thanks though!
• "You look tiny." -I feel like a cow (I know, there is no pleasing a pregnant lady)

Throughout the rest of the pregnancy

• "You look like you were ready to pop 2 months ago." -Ummm....Thanks?! 
• "You look totally miserable, of course that could just be the way you look, and you could feel great." -Yes, this was really said to me.
• "I'll get you a parachute at the Army Surplus store  to wear." (Thanks dad) He was TOTALLY kidding.
• "I don't know how you're still walking." 
• "You don't walk anymore. you waddle." -NO lady wants to hear that they are waddling. We already know we look ridiculous....HA!
• "You're gonna do (Thing) with your son? Really?" -YES! He's our son, and we'll do what we want to with him.
• "How are you feeling?" -I know this is just a question, and you probably are really concerned, but when we get to the very end of the pregnancy, you feel like CRAP! You hurt all over, you're tired beyond tired, your feet hurt, if you're like me, your swollen, EVERYWHERE, and you just want to cry. This is a very loaded question. So if you're going to ask it, prepare yourself. 
• "You'll wish you were still pregnant once that baby is here." -What are you trying to say? That I'm gonna wish my son wasn't born? I have put in the time, I think it's time that I get to hold my baby boy. Will I miss feeling him move, yes, however, I'm gonna have a baby. A baby that we WANTED. 
• "A REAL mother wouldn't put their child into daycare." -Ummm.....I have nothing to say to that one.
• "Things are going to be so hard when that baby comes." -Why can't people tell me how WONDERFUL things will be, how I'm gonna love being a mother, and how there's nothing like it in the world when your baby looks up at you and smiles for the first time?! THOSE are the things we want to hear. 
• "You'll think of divorce more in the first 3 months of your baby's life than you have the whole time you've been married." -I'm sorry your relationship is rocky, my husband and I will be just fine! 

I'm sure there are a few other ones that I've missed, but these are the ones that have really stuck out to me! When people say these things to you, all you can do is laugh. I mean, seriously, just laugh about it, because if you don't, it'll make it worse! 

Today was the day...

Today was the day they cut my stitch. When my doctor pulled it out, he showed it to me, and I was SHOCKED at how small it was. This tiny little piece of thread was holding our son in. CRAZY! I didnt go into labor right away, but he did say that I'm dilated to a 2 already. We could have a baby within a week, or I could go to my due date. I guess we'll see what happens. I have been pretty emotional today. Part of me wants this baby here, now. The part that has been MISERABLE for the last couple weeks. Between my super swollen kankles, my tired feet, not sleeping (yes, i know, when he gets here, the sleep won't get any better) and how much my whole body hurts, I'm ready for him to be here. The other part of me wants him to stay in there for as long as he can, so we can make sure he's good and healthy.
Anyways, I'll update the blog when we know more!

News

Hello to the 2 people that actually read our blog! ;)

We finally have some news on what's going on with baby! We know that they are pulling the stitch on June 6th, which means we will be delivering here in Richfield because I will be 37 weeks at that point! After they pull that stitch, our little man is welcome to come whenever he wants! Victor thinks I'll make it a couple more weeks before he makes his grand entrance, I think he'll probably come within a week of them pulling the stitch! I guess we shall see! I can't believe we could have a baby in 3 weeks! It's a crazy thought! I guess we need to start to get his room put together!
  I go in again tomorrow to check everything, and to make sure he's still stuck in there, but I'm sure everything will be just fine!

Here is a picture of our little guy when he finally decided to show us his face at our 30 week (4 weeks ago) ultrasound. If you ask me, I think he's the cutest little man there ever was!

For Mommy's eyes only

Hello there fellow mommys!
 I have a quick question for you, and if you want to answer, great! If not, don't worry about it!

After our little man joins our family, I will be taking 6 weeks maternity leave, and then coming back to work. I'm looking for a breastpump that is a good one. One that, if it is a little more money, is worth it. Also, any tips of pumping would be greatly appreciated. I'm worried that I'm not going to be able to get the milk I need for him. Any thoughts and ideas?!

Thanks in advance!

Dear Baby Boy M.

Son,
     As we sit here getting closer and closer to the day you will join us, my mind is filled with so many things I want to say to you, things I am concerned about, and things I just think about.
     First and foremost, I want you to know that your daddy and I love you very much. I'm amazed at how much we love you already. You still have 11 weeks before you join us here in earth, but in our hearts, you've been in our family for 29 weeks. There isn't a day that goes by that we don't talk about you. What we're going to name you, who we think you'll be come, if we're gonna be the best parents for you, and so on and so forth. You are the first thing on my mind in the mornings, and the last thing on my mind at night. When I wake up in the middle of the night to pee because you're kicking my bladder (thanks for that) you are the only thing I think about until I fall back to sleep.
    We're still not exactly sure what we're going to name you, but we have a couple ideas. There is one name that we keep coming back to, and one day, I'll let you know if what we end up naming you, is the name we were thinking about!
    Your daddy and I wonder all the time who you will become. We will raise you the best we can, with the Gospel in your life, but we know that it is ultimately your decision. Please know, that no matter who you become in your life, that your daddy and I will love you....no matter what.
     You will find out that your mommy is a worrier....your daddy, not so much. I find myself worrying a lot about if I'll be the mother you deserve, if I have what it takes to do the 2 AM feedings, if I will be patient enough, or if I will love you enough. I worry that maybe I will screw up. But with the help of your dad, and the priesthood he holds, I've found comfort in the blessings he's given me.
     Speaking of your dad, he is the most incredible man I have ever met. You are so lucky to have him as your daddy. Please look up to him, ask him questions, and let him help you. Please know that while he's not super emotional, and doesn't voice his feelings very loud, or often, know that he loves you. Please lean on him when you're going through hard times. We might be old, but we've been through a thing or two. He is so excited to take you hunting, and camping with him. Use this time to bond with him.
     I can't wait to meet you little guy, but I guess for now I will settle with feeling your kicks, your headbutts, and hearing your heartbeat at all of our appointments. It's amazing how hearing a little "swoosh" can brighten my day so much, and fill my heart with so much emotion.
  
   I love you so so much,
Your Mommy
     
    

Update

Hello there!
  People keep asking me how things have been since the surgery, and I'm happy to report, things have been wonderful. Baby is healthy, and staying put! I go back in on Friday just to check things again, but I'm confident that things will look great! Baby doesn't like it when I sit down. He likes to kick me in my ribs! What a stinker!
   We bought our car seat on Friday! I feel SOOOO much better knowing that we have it. It's still in the box down in the basement, but just knowing it's there takes a lot of stress away.
   I am a little frustrated with something though. My doctor in Cedar will only deliver me in Cedar, which is 1.5 hours away. So, if I make it to my due date, I would have go camp out for the week before, and just wait to go into labor. That doesn't sound like too much fun. However, neither does driving 1.5 hours while I'm in labor. So we decided we would find a doctor here in Richfield to take over my pregnancy, or deliver me here. I will continue to see my doctor in Cedar until week 36 when he takes the stitch out of my cervix, and then we're free to see who we want. I would love to stay with him, I just don't see it happening. I've had a lot of people tell me that within 24-48 hours after the stitch being removed, they have gone into labor. One person told me that the baby was here in less than a half hour. When I went to the doctor here in Richfield last Friday, they told me that they won't deliver me before I'm 37 weeks. If I go into labor before the 37 week mark, they will send me to Provo, either by ambulance, or helicopter, depending on how long they think I have before baby comes. So, I'm not really sure I see the point in switching doctors, if neither doctor I want to deliver me, is going to be the one to do it. Of course, there is the possibility that I will carry to term, and I'll be able to deliver here in Richfield, and everything will be perfect. So, I'm just having a hard time knowing what to do about the whole situation. There is no way to KNOW what's going to happen, and I'm not the kind of person that deals well with that.

Anyways, there is a little bit of an update for you. I will know more after Friday!