Dear Baby Boy M.

Son,
     As we sit here getting closer and closer to the day you will join us, my mind is filled with so many things I want to say to you, things I am concerned about, and things I just think about.
     First and foremost, I want you to know that your daddy and I love you very much. I'm amazed at how much we love you already. You still have 11 weeks before you join us here in earth, but in our hearts, you've been in our family for 29 weeks. There isn't a day that goes by that we don't talk about you. What we're going to name you, who we think you'll be come, if we're gonna be the best parents for you, and so on and so forth. You are the first thing on my mind in the mornings, and the last thing on my mind at night. When I wake up in the middle of the night to pee because you're kicking my bladder (thanks for that) you are the only thing I think about until I fall back to sleep.
    We're still not exactly sure what we're going to name you, but we have a couple ideas. There is one name that we keep coming back to, and one day, I'll let you know if what we end up naming you, is the name we were thinking about!
    Your daddy and I wonder all the time who you will become. We will raise you the best we can, with the Gospel in your life, but we know that it is ultimately your decision. Please know, that no matter who you become in your life, that your daddy and I will love you....no matter what.
     You will find out that your mommy is a worrier....your daddy, not so much. I find myself worrying a lot about if I'll be the mother you deserve, if I have what it takes to do the 2 AM feedings, if I will be patient enough, or if I will love you enough. I worry that maybe I will screw up. But with the help of your dad, and the priesthood he holds, I've found comfort in the blessings he's given me.
     Speaking of your dad, he is the most incredible man I have ever met. You are so lucky to have him as your daddy. Please look up to him, ask him questions, and let him help you. Please know that while he's not super emotional, and doesn't voice his feelings very loud, or often, know that he loves you. Please lean on him when you're going through hard times. We might be old, but we've been through a thing or two. He is so excited to take you hunting, and camping with him. Use this time to bond with him.
     I can't wait to meet you little guy, but I guess for now I will settle with feeling your kicks, your headbutts, and hearing your heartbeat at all of our appointments. It's amazing how hearing a little "swoosh" can brighten my day so much, and fill my heart with so much emotion.
  
   I love you so so much,
Your Mommy