Changes

Becoming a mother changes everything. It changes how you live. It changes how you dress, how you think, how you sleep, what you eat. It changes your body, some think for the better, some think for the worse. These are all changes that some people long for, they pray to gain 50 pounds, they plead with their Father in Heaven to just let them get stretch marks, and to throw up every morning because what they ate wasn't sitting right with their new baby. Some people try for these changes for days, weeks, or even years. What kind of love that must be to want these changes for another person.
My thoughts on these changes are this, they are the best changes that ever could have happened to me.
The change in how I live. I live every day for my son. To be the kind of mother he will be proud of. I live for my hubby as well, and without him, none of this would have been possible, and for that I am eternally grateful for him.
Changes in my dress, while I never walked around in Daisy Dukes, and bikini tops, I did end up walking around in maternity pants (which by the way are THE most comfortable things, ever) and nursing shirts.
How I think. When I would wake up before I would think, I have to get out of bed, and go to work, then come home, do the dishes, cook dinner, do laundry and so on. Now when I wake up, I think, I get to get up and snuggle this sweet boy, who thinks I hung the moon (not that he knows what the moon is yet). I get to be a mommy to this sweet boy, with my best friend, and the best partner on this journey I could ask for as his daddy.
Being a mother definitely changes how you sleep. Of course you lose sleep, and a lot of it, but your dreams when you have a child change. I dream about what I want for my baby. What kind of life I want him to have, and what I can do to help with that. Sleep changes in the way that, even when he's not awake, screaming all night I'm awake thinking about him. Sleep, it seems to be a thing of the past.
Eating changes, because when you're pregnant you crave things, such as grilled cheese sandwiches, and baked potatoes, and you cant eat something that you've loved for years, such as steak, and hamburgers. After you have that sweet bundle of joy, or diet changes again. Now you eat things to increase your milk supply if you're lucky enough to be able to nurse, and if not, you eat salads and so on to try to lose the rest of that dreaded, yet longed for, baby weight.
Changes to your body! This is a big one. When your trying to get pregnant you do everything you can to get your body ready for the adventure you're about ready to embark on. When you are pregnant your body changes every day. From the pathway to motherhood (stretch marks) to your fat swollen feet, to your crazy long hair all of a sudden. Some people are ashamed of their stretch marks, but for me, when I look at them, it makes me remember what it was like to grow a baby. It makes me proud. I did it, and knowing so many people that can't, looking at them humbles as well. As soon as you have a baby, you're trying everything you can to get your pre-baby body back. It's hard work, it brings feelings of defeat when you've dieted for a month, and nothing has changed, or when you work your butt off at the gym, and nothing, but it also brings changes for you. Changes for your attitude, changes how you feel about yourself.
Changes. Some are good, some are bad. The changes of motherhood, are the best changes you could ever make in your life. Some ask why you would want to do that to yourself. Get fat, eat everything in sight, cry at the latest commercial, and to those people, I would say, you won't know unless you experience your baby looking at you for the first time, after 9 long months. When he looks at you and smiles because he's missed you after a long day, there is nothing like it. When you see your husband playing and genuinely laughing as he tickles this little person, that is half you and half him, it melts your heart.
Not all changes are bad.